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Never Really Mattered

Why did you break my heart and be with him, When did we fall apart and our light got dim, How could you love when our love was so true, As though everything we shared never mattered to you; I did my best to make you smile, And every day was a test but I ran that mile, Cause you were what mattered most then and now, But instead you went home and forgot me, How? Did I not matter to you and made a difference, I brought you from a dark life and shadowed existence, I made you a home from a place from far, And we made my apartment our home and wished on a star; Cause I met this girl that words can't describe, And from then on a life I never wanted to hide, But then that day you left to fly, And left me behind and ever since I wonder why? Maybe one day you will then see, That you made the wrong choice for you and me, But for now I'll not forgive but forget, If your relationship fails I know you'll read this and regret; What you did to me that day when I cr

Haunting Memories

A couple days now I've been thinking about you ... I continue to write in that black book we talked about before we broke up. I write in there from time to time but seeing that we're not meeting anymore, I'll toss it out after the year, I'm sure you don't want to hear my sad stories. It's been rough 'cause I see pictures of you and I can't help but think of what we had. I drift into the past and the times we shared together, holding you at night and waking up every morning next to you, I still remember it as clear as yesterday. I wonder at times if you had the best of me .... 'Cause I still can't seem to get out of this dark depressed feelin' .... When you left I was sad but I knew we had something special. Then you turned the tables and you were gone, as though I wasn't really that important after all. We were great, you and I, we spent those months together and it felt like life was made for us. We had each other and nothing else matt

These Times are Getting Harder

I know that what happened felt real even to me and maybe one day I'll see how it all turns out. At the moment I'm working on being a better person to understand how I went wrong and how I could have been better. Maybe it's over for you but I'm still very broken inside, even with a smile on my face and a joke or two, I'm nothing more than empty, cause you took all that mattered from me and never returned ... Hopefully it will heal and I'll be whole again but I won't be the same, cause you're with him and I'm all alone again ... I'm not a bad guy I'm sure you know that more than anyone else and I wish you the best in life, because if I didn't, you wouldn't have fallen for me in the first place ... Maybe one day I'll matter to you as much as you did for me ...